Some Days you should just stay in bed.

Today was one of those days. MOney troubles, a bad hair dye coloring, work stress, wedding stress, business stress. It just all piles up and some days I just can't hang. Sometimes I wish things were like they used to be. Work during the day then just watch TV or read at night. Or knit or sew. Now it's like non stop, stuff going on all the time, never a moment to spare. And often, I love it. I love doing events with Audrey, I like my co-workers, it's just even when I carve out a little time for myself it just doesn't seem like enough. I'm still thinking, worrying, planning, etc. I'm really really really looking forward to Ireland and London next month. Maybe 8 days of escape from life will help. Hopefully it doesnt make me just want to keep wandering. I like to wander. Maybe that's it. I don't get to wander ever. OH how I look forward to it. Fingers crossed I get a chance to catch my breath.

Randoms

So apparently I'm in a teal buying mode. I'm still loving the color of my yarn for my Cowl "teal-ish" and I bought these shoes at Marshall's the other day. THey're almost the exact same color! So I'll look color coordinated while knitting. Hey I try.
I found a song that makes me wish Brendan and I were going to have a first dance. It's called Kentish Town Waltz by Imelda May. It's so awesome. The chorus:

and we stuck with each other with all our might, we pulled it together and held real tight,
And I'm glad for us, I'm glad mo chroi but it's nothing to anyone except you and me
There were wrongs for every right, there's ups and theres downs
But you're the one for all my life, my true love I have found, yeah you my love I found


Alas, Brendan and I dancing = pointing and snickering by everyone around. I'll pass on that.

In other news my new girl crush is Olivia Wilde.
I want her skin. I WANT IT. I went to a dermotologist for the first time and she gave me prescription for $800 worth of creams that good ol WalMart got me for $20. SCORE. So in my head by the end of this I will have skin like hers. Yes I realize that might be completely not possible, but do I look like I care dammit? I WANT HER SKIN. Ooh I really like this pic of her. It's very English looking. Like she should go jump on a horse in the English countryside.


And lastly, I miss David Tennant. So I'm starting to rewatch all the old Who's with him in them. I just bought the Martha season. Even thought I hate Martha, I broke down and bought it jsut so I could own all the David ones. Have I mentioned that I'm HEARTBROKEN that Much Ado About Nothing starring him and Catherine Tate is ending it's run in london just like TWO WEEKS before I get there???? SADNESS!!!!!!!!
That's all for now!

My sister is awesome

My sister had a photo book made of my bachelorette at Disneyland! She's the best!!

Pity Party Averted

Last week I asked my mom if I could throw myself a pity party. One person had RSVP'd to my bridal shower and I was super bummed, feeling like I had no friends and that I was unimportant. Wah wah Wah. This along with my mom being gone when she was supposed to be visiting me and my grandpa being in the hospital I was just in a low mood. Today at work, we had a staff meeting at lunch. I went with my boss to pick up the food we ordered and when I came back they had turned teh conference room into a little surprise bridal shower. They pitched in and got us some stuff from our honeyfund.com account and some kitchenwares. It was awesome. Here I was thinking I was lame and unimportant and lo and behold they were just being sneaky.

I'm lucky to work at such a great office and I love my co-workers. I feel like I'm a part of this family even though I've only been here a little over 5 months :-)

So, as I said, Pity Party Averted.

 

Now back to work!

 

Ups and Downs. Heartache and sadness.

I think it's always harder when what was supposed to be a good week or day takes a turn for the worse. Maybe things wouldn't seem as bad if you hadn't had expected all to be happy and good. Such was the last week. My mom was coming to visit, we had a big event, mom was staying all week to hang out, then my bridal shower. The vent was great, fun, my best friends came out, me Audrey and my mom had a ton of fun. Then at dinner my mom got a call that my grandfather had a stroke. We got her a flight that evening out of San Diego up to Oregon and she was up there all week. Her poor dogs had no clue what was going up. All week it's been ups and downs on his health. Some days great improvement and some days major backsliding. I wish I could go up there, but really even if I could, my relationship with them hasn't been the best over the last decade. It had been years since they'd talk to me when I finally talked to them at my Aunts wedding a few years ago and even now, they don't call or write or anything. I send them cards sometimes but I miss them a lot. I miss my Papa the most. Then my bridal shower just ended up being a hang out with my geek squad (not my idea to call us that but it's definitely not a misnomer) plus me getting presents. I love my girls, knitting and hanging with them is always the best stress releiver. They are amazing people and I'm stuper damn stoked that I know them. I can let my inner geek out and they love me more for it :-)

So now I'm just trying to piece things back together. I basically took a mental health day today, spent time with my mom, had a good cry in my car this morning, got some stuff done. Lots of events coming up and school starts at the end of the month, so I'll be keepng busy. Luckily I get to see my mom quite a bit over the next month so there's at least that.

And I'm halfway done with my cowl. So basically I should just stop bitching eh? Things are never as bad as they sound in your head I guess.

On a parting note, if anyone prays or anything like that, please keep my grandpa in them. It would mean the world to me. Thank you.